I have many thoughts passing through my head every day that I want to remember somehow and be able to look back at. One of my younger sisters inspired me to set up my own blog and start collecting all these thougts on a regular basis. And by broadcasting my brain on this site I might scare away some people, but on the otherhand, they who not realize that it's just my thoughts and feelings in words and not any actions, maybe need to face their fear of not beeing miss or mr almighty.
As my life and the world has spun, we've learned a lot of eachother. I do wish that I have had some kind of affect on someone, something. What is sure however is that this world (the people, the nature, the elements of life) gives me many lessons every day. Sometimes I learn something from them, sometimes Im too stubborn and the knowledge passes me by. Some lessons comes again and unfortunatly some of them will never return.
When we fall in love, real love, for the very first time we see the woman alternatively man of our dreams, even though, at that time, reason may be telling otherwise. And we may fight against that instinct, hoping against hope that we won't win, until there comes a point when we allow ourselves to be vanquished by our feelings. I can't express my gratitude in words that I got from learning this lesson. When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change. At such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.
Luckely I found the strength and courage to change, to let my feelings dance together with my heart wich now is set free. Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.
A lot of people are trying to convince me that you love because you love, that there is no special reasons for loving someone. But I disagree.
I love my friends because I had a dream, because I stood on the top of a mountain, because I shared the same bread with people all around the world, because I never gave up, because I've been stranded on a deserted island, because I am me and that I one day was on the same place as them....
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